misunderstood?!! Goth Or Ghost? WTF!

hye everyone!!! :3

first thing i want to say...

are u understand my title???

yes?

no?

okay...

i can explain it...

i think this always happened in my life about 1 or 2 years ago including this year

and always like this!

*my face (feeling) mixed up!*

hmm... about 4 days ago (tuesday)

i went to march! (march training)

a.k.a perbarisan atw kawad kaki

* hard to explained*

i went to the mosque first before go to march training

because i want to put my bag there

and soon i met my friend

and my friend look into my eyes and they said it is beautiful

(but i don't mind about the praised)

but i'm happy about  it and not to be pride or bangga diri.

actually...

I HATE MY OWN EYES!

*AND EVEN MY NOSE

*i don't know why?*

i have to admit it i have dark eyes >_<

and because of that i hate it

my eyelashes is too dark and long (both eyelashes including up and down eyelashes)

urgh!

*depressed*

once i walk up to the stairs to went to the class

there are two boys looking at me

and they said i'm wearing MASCARA!

*WTF!*

WHAT THE HECK IS THAT?!!

i said i'm not wearing any make up before went to school

*i feel ashamed about that!*

and then went to class with face doesn't have feeling

mean : BLURR...

* that was i'm form 1*

my friend say that too...

even my ex said me mata hitam (black eyes) and

he said i'm look like a ghost

GHOST???

*no mood*

i'm like have missing passion...

but thanks to zyka ( my best friend)

she said my eyes look like emo or goth

hihihihihi X3

my spirits fully charged after that!

she gave me some strong spirits! :)

i'm so happy about it :D

okay...

if u see me, talk to me, or want befriend with me

don't misunderstood about me

about my grumpy, arrogant or selfishness face

( i'm not like that anyway...)

it's true...

and sorry if my face like that

and i rarely smile and make everyone laugh

hountoni gomen ne... >_<

and don't misjudge me

like don't misjudge the book by it's cover

if u want befriend with me...

u should know me from ur heart and not should know me from my face only

^_^

and again... thnx for read! :D

have a nice day everyone! 

ja, ne!